living for myself
I’ve written many more words than I am going to publish, since many of them sound like they come from a position of privilege (they do) and are out of touch (they are). Words about using the good china even if no one is coming over.
I can’t help but say something, though, because I think it’s important to remember to not put off pleasure.
Even under quarantine.
It’s tempting to wear leggings or sweats all day, to not wash or comb your hair, and to generally not make any effort.
Please know that I say this with no judgment. There are days when it’s all I can do to get out of bed. When leggings/sweats seem like the best thing invented.
But most days I don’t feel that way. I look in my closet and see things I love but then I remember I can’t go out to a restaurant/movie/theater/concert/show. So why bother?
I guess I want to say, make up your own “bother.”
If your soul is wanting to wear some outfit today that has nothing to do with you staying inside and watching The Mandalorian, I say do it. Even for an hour. Because it’s for you. No one else.
During quarantine, I’ve worn high heels and sparkly dresses. I’ve done my hair up when I’ve had nowhere to go. I’ve used the pretty glasses for champagne. I wear lipstick under my face mask, even when it’s pointless.
Because I’m doing these thing for me. Not for anyone else.
If I put off doing these things until conditions improve, for all I know it will never get better and I will never be able to wear these impractical heels. That outfit that’s too nice to wear now because nothing is open.
I just wanted to send a little reminder that you’re living your life for yourself. Not anyone else. (And not for me, so feel free to reject these comments. If you’re a first responder and think I’m out of touch with your life, you’re probably right. Also, I thank you.)
For me, though, putting on these strappy heels today while I write these pages has improved my mood. No one sees them except my family. But they make me happy.
They make me feel like I’m living for myself. No one else. And that’s the point.
Even under quarantine.
